Holly Shit it has been ever since I have updated this bitch. OK anyways I’m still a pv2 I’m working my way up. I just graduated AIT with a 93.74 average. I’m happy as hell, but sad as Hell I tried so hard to get a higher grade and I couldn’t make it to honor grad. I pissed off a lot of people, but hey that’s life You got to start somewhere. I’m being told I will be sent over sea’s really soon and it kinda scary. I don’t know what to say but It’s a risk I have to take. Hopefully I will be able to update this damn site. I’m planning on deleting my myspace. It’s sad to see how many problems it can cause people. I don’t see why people even try to use it when it only hurts them in the long run. Well I can’t wait to shit together. I’m with Whitney, But I honestly how much longer we will be happier together. It’s sad to say but We argue to much and it seems I’m the only one able to explain my feelings while she’s speach less. Which scares me I wonder how me and her are ever going to really make it. I hope all goes well to be honest. I honestly love her, But I can’t stand to see hurt unhappy with me and constantly it seems like she mad with our relationship. Either way life moves on. I have to start investing and rethinking my thoughts to a better future, and hope for the best outcome.

So far AIT hasn’t been hard at all im a 21r and I honestly am enjoying it with everything I got. Im moving forward with everything I got and I don’t understand why would anyone want to give up. I got injuried pretty bad here, but things move foraward and I don’t think im going to be spending to much time looking back. Im doing my best to get ready for my PT test so I can pass it this time. My body is going through alot Im losing a constant amount of weight with my dieting. Im not sure what I weigh now but people are constaly asking me If I lost weight which mean alot to me. I can’t wait to get this shit moving forward. I start class tuesday which should be fun as hell. I want to get this shit done and over with. If I don’t start class tuesday I will probably go up to first sargent and ask him whats up. I have been here for five weeks three weeks in reception processing my way in. not much longer until im done with this shit

Everything is back to normal. I have been working on trying to figure out how to best improve my chances in the army. I haven’t posted because of all the parties I have recently been too. I started smoking again I wonder if it’s going to affect me much throughout my training. I hope that my smoking habit wont kill me in the long wrong. I have to get things straight with everything I figured out if I do a 100 sit ups and push ups a night it should help me get through everything.  I can’t wait to ship off I’m going to be putting all my effort in the next 9 weeks. I can’t wait to finish everything through.

Its been really hard on me lately. I’m getting ready to go to AIT. Whitney and I split up we need a break for a while. Things where getting to problematic. It’s sad of things came to be I mean she is a great girl you would never expect her to be with a guy like me. She was honestly a god blessed angel. I just couldn’t deal with all the arguments and judgments. So i decided I need to be single for a long period of time give me and her some time to grow up. If it’s meant to be it will be that is all that is needed to be said about the situation. I can’t believe so much time has gone by a year and a half and me and her couldn’t go any further hurting each other. We had planned to get married before I went to AIT but that in it’s self is a bad idea. Why get married with visible problems leaking out your vain and tears. I can’t wait to get my first car and make it a fucking nice ass sleeper(stronger then it looks) I have so much on my mine but there is some good news. I started studying again all the basics of the army code and so forth. Im ready to leave and lose my belly again. Damn I hate having it. I ordered my first phone plan in my life today. I got a Helio Ocean for only 200 dollars with 99 unlimited plan. I’m ready for this shit I can’t wait to get off the ground and be happy for once knowing Im doing right.

But I’m not going to lie things are hard on me right now I got alot time to think about my life and how things are going to workout. I’m not going to get married for about 5 years. That way I already have everything setup and Rank to where I honestly have a good paycheck coming in. I got live my life before I provide for a life I can’t afford. Military pay isn’t all that great no matter how you look at it. Plus people are ass wholes too us for protecting them it’s funny as hell.

Well thats a post update on how things are looking right now. I will talk to you peeps later.

Ok before everyone goes crazy. This is not a rant this is just true fact people need to know. Yes gas prices are high. I mean wow who wouldn’t complain about three dollars a gallon. But I have heard so much about lets strike back lets not buy gas one day. I can see where ignorant people no offense would do this and think there is going to be a serious change.  Well not really it wont really do anything but hurt the economy more. Not only are you hurting the oil industry. But your doing it without any real thought on what the rebound is. I don’t understand either how you could blame the government.  Yes, I have heard this before if they have resevores why not use them to bring prices down. well First off the are for emergency’s. Not because you wanna save money so you can drive down one street to a Burger King. This is where luxury becomes our problem. We Grow fat and greedy. We put what would be the right thing to do behind us for what would be the easer thing to do. Come on what is wrong with the United States. Oh an just for reference before you start judging the United States for gas prices. Lets see what the gas prices would be if the United States government didn’t help keep low gas prices.  Wow Well look there a gallon of gas over seas is around eight dollars a gallon. But wait what is that I hear that there using less gas and being more conservative. Holly cow maybe we can try that. Be more conservative of what we are doing.

Not only has oil companies put new jobs in our hands. They have been working on safer fuels. Not only are they working to provide for us there working to stand among us. Our criticisms means nothing but more blabber and chit chat. We really need to look at what we are doing to our nation We no longer need to thrive to be the same or impress others. I think we need to grab hold of ourself and find truth and real happiness. There are a few sites around the net that have real points and real gesture’s you should read just load up your happy browser and go searching.

I started work on the website again. I can’t wait to get it off the ground. I got only about a month to do so though. I found it easyer to work from the inside out. Wish me luck I should be done soon.

Ok Well my workout has been tough. Im feeling alot of pain and my body is all tired. Im not over doing it but I think my meds are making me strong. The only thing is Leukic, Gakic, Creakic, Nitrotech plus HydroxYcut is a pretty serious combo. I mean I can feel it even if it just my stomach hurting. I feel like I’m putting my body through a lot this workout. I’m trying my best to get ready for AIT. I can’t wait to get things on track. My girl has been a great motivation for me. I have had a lot on my mind. So far going to bed early and waking up at 430 is working for me. I enjoy running in the morning now. It’s keeping me motivated and ready and the cold shower in the morning and the hot shower at night keep my body flowing with it’s new regular routine. I can’t wait to lose the weight I have a goal set at 180 and now I weigh 218 I’m gaining weight and I hope I can figure things out soon. I have a lot of training ahead this week I got to push forward and get things done for once. I have this bet with my mother on who can lose the most weight but I think with my shake all I’m going to do is gain weight. I’m kinda worried that I won’t win but I got a lot of motivation behind all my steps. Oh an on note all my gas is smelling horrible. I swear this stack I’m doing is great but has a horrible smell side effect (passing gas). Ok well I will try to post as most as possible through out my training and my wedding.